Today was my last day of school for a month and a half. Recently I’ve just been really excited about next semester because I plan on enjoying all the classes. Advice for anyone: Do not take a hybrid course. Even the smartest kid in my class was confused on the final. It sucked. But I definiteley tried my hardest, and next semester I hope to do even better now that I’ve got the college thing somewhat down, and will enjoy the classes.I’ve also learned to re read sections of a book, because teachers like to stray from the syllabus and test you on things you read two weeks ago, and with my terrible memory I would forget. I celebrated today by laying around all day and watching twelve episodes of sex and the city, and stuffing my face full of cookies and pasta. mmm. I didn’t have a car,because I lent it to my sister,so curling up into a ball on the couch in my pajamas seemed like the best option for today. I enjoyed it. Trying to be positive all the time latley. I’ve also gotten another book, thats the one thing that sucks about working at B&N, you see every book imaginable and start to read one on your break and realize how much you want to buy it. Probably going to dedicate another hour or so to reading tonight. Not much going on.

I think I miiiight just be crazy.

Excerpt by Eckhart Tolle:

“The change goes deeper than the content of your mind, deeper than your thoughts. In fact, at the heart of the new conciousness lies the transcendence of thought, the newfound ability of rising above thought, of realizing a dimension within yourself that is infinitely more vast than thought. You then no longer derive your identity, your sense of who you are, from the incessant stream of thinking that in the old conciousness you take to be yourself. What a liberation to realize that the “voice in my head” is not who I am. Who am I then? The one who sees that. The awareness that is prior to thought, the space in which the thought-or the emotion or sense preception-happens.”

Hes just so awesome, and I’m only twenty five pages in. Everyone should give this book a once over, even if you think what he’s saying is hooplah, at least give it a read.

is making me broke, but its all for a good cause. just took my final for science and NOTHING I learned was on it, typical. Anyway, debating wether to head back to bed or read some. Work later!

As always, but this time I have a reason. Stayed up way too late at deejays, and hope he’s still alive! haha. Woke up at 8:30 for work. EXHAUSTED. Sean reccomended Eckhart Tolle’s, A New Earth, so I started to read it on my break and really was enjoying it and bought it after work so we can read it together and discuss like nerds. That and some christmas presants and a N.G. I wanna curl up and take a well deserved nap, but also want to get on my reading. We’ll see.

Woke up way too early this morning to help everyone out at work, then went to TBT with mommy, laura, and sara. It was nice to get together with all the girls, plus they have the best food and tea ever. It was the “christmas” celebration tea, and it was snowing, how festive. I’ve gotten so excited and into the christmas spirit this year. It’s going to be a good one, I can feel it. Even though it always is.

What have I become, my sweetest friend

Everyone I know, goes away in the end.

Ah I love heeeeem. Anyway, just got done cleaning my room. Hung up a huge map of the world on one of my walls, just to give me something positive to look at everyday. I’m starting to get ancy. When to school and had an awesome guest speaker in anthropology. He was an experimental and experiential archaeologist. So basically, he went out to sites and learned the trades of the native peoples whom lived there, to test hypothesis on how they lived. If that makes sense? So, if people speculated that this method was used to cook, he would try it out. Anyway, he was an old grizzly man with a beard and ponytail and so happy with life, and told awesome stories. Then I went to B&N and did a little shoppin. Came home and munched, now I’m going to get ready for the night. Should be a fun one. Confusion settles.

Last night I said everything I had to say! Now there’s nothing, and so it truly begins. I’m not the type to just supress what I want to say, so once I’m done saying it and it’s off my chest I’m fine and I can go on about my buisness. I had some crazy dreams last night. Gotta roll out of bed and pee. Work today, then something fun.

My mom told me a story the other day, and it really stuck with me. I’m sure you’ll get the point.

Mom is at work with a black coworker;

mom: how to african american women stay so young looking?

woman: well, we don’t stress out about our men. you white women do, but once they start bringing us trouble we kick em to the curb.

How true. Think about that next time he’s a jackass and you’re crying. WHO CARES. We’re so young. That’s really all I have to say, nothing is worth stripping you of your happiness. Julie and I had a long talk today, and thats what we came to. Just thought I’d share. Its quite simple, but it takes a while to realize when you love/loved someone. Now all I want is fun fun fun.